The need for control, at least the illusion of control, was central to my life for nearly 60 years. I fought and struggled for what I deemed perfection, everything to the utmost standards, everything perfectly prepared and controlled. A reasonable analogy was a child who needs to stay within every line while coloring or the picture is ruined, ripped up and destroyed amid tears. This is the person who was forced to retire at 58 after losing my left eye and my combined disabilities made performing my job impossible. I loved my job, felt lucky to be paid for doing work I believed in. I worked hard, and while I hadn’t achieved control or perfection, it felt within my grasp. It was a tough loss. Not only was my job gone, but my retirement dreams disappeared as well as I became too disabled to continue owning, riding, or even spending time safely with my horses. I had no idea who I was without those two things.
Fighting depression, I began casting around for fun things to do n and I was capable of performing. I spent a lot of time in the therapy pool, the only place I can run. I ran until I wasn’t angry and it was there I started cloud watching for the first time since childhood. Clouds reflect light in such a way I get a visual map of the depth that others see. From this little spark grew a fascination with how light bent light in awe—inspiring ways and color combinations. I began playing with paint on canvas; large blocks of color stacked overlapping. I took an art history class at the community college and spent hours on Youtube learning about art history and color theory.
Then I was introduced to fluid art, aka paint pouring, flow art, liquid art, etc., and while all my paintings are abstract, currently the majority of my work is fluid art. It’s a form of abstract art that uses acrylic paints as liquid. I can pour, drip, swirl, glaze, dip, smash, mash, or kiss my paints onto a substrate. My paintings have the motion my body lacks, and there is no predicting an outcome with fluid art, it is based on embracing the loss of control. As liquids, the acrylic colors blend and flow, moving and interacting in ways never predicted. The same paints on the same type of substrate will not yield the same results twice. Embracing fluid art allows my creativity to blossom, reduces stress and anxiety and forces me to embrace the unexpected. Embracing fluid art gave birth to one eye art, a singular vision. If you take the time to look at some of my art work, I think you will understand what I’ve said about fluid art and how it is different from traditional art. Welcome to my world, Enjoy!
one eye art is the brain child of Cari Watrous
singular… something extraordinary, remarkable, or one of a kind